Follow thay heart

I have a difficult decision to make. A problem to solve, so to speak. It can become so easy to ruminate and over-think and work on a problem over and over until it feels like we are turning blue in the face and our wheels are spinning and we are just not getting anywhere. Although it helps to “talk it out” so that it is not running amuck in our heads; but the trepidation of the problem still lingers like a bad smell of the left over fish from the night before. I have done all these things in reaction to my difficult decision, but I missed a very important part. I heard myself say out loud at one point that my whole body is feeling a certain way yet I got caught in the head games of over thinking and over analyzing as to what to do. Running scenarios through my brain that actually have not happened yet. Rationalizing the situation and logically figuring out the problem as though it was some great mystery to be solved and dissolved. Conquered! It came from someone of high regard to me who reminded me, in her great wisdom and love for the inner life of ourselves, who grounded me when she said, “listen to your body. If you don’t it is a betrayal to yourself.” Well… maybe not in those exact words but I got what she was telling me in that I had a very strong body reaction and the best thing to do is to listen to that and be so attentive to the wisdom and knowledge of the body in getting to solve the problem. As she said this and as I listened to myself I felt my body relax. I was listening to my body, my instinct, my very own bodily knowledge and wisdom as to what to do. I got wrapped up in the expectations of what is expected to problem solve by just using my mind. I got sucked into the distraction of thought and tried to over-ride what my body was telling me. When I listened to my body the physical, mental, and emotional aspects of me all came together in a united front to provide answers and a release to my dilemma. It took me to a place of freedom and to a place of choice!